SUNFAIR

1. AT THE SYMPHONY

Smoked a joint, fell asleep

in my chair at the symphony

From the second mezzanine                

the canyon was bright and deep

 

Staring down at my feet 

The floor gave way so tenderly

A wind swelled up from down below

Something bout the rise and fall of the tremolo

The bows sliced and diced the air with such speed

whipping the room into a frenzy

and it bubbled up 

and overflowed

then it all dropped off

and the oboe rolled

a howl that shook 

some starlings out 

of a ceiling crack

and the moon shown down

 

And the night crept in

in a sequin gown

started two-stepping

man could she get down

 

Smoked a joint, fell asleep

in my chair at the symphony

From the second mezzanine                

the canyon was bright and deep

 

2. GOES WITHOUT SAYING

Stealing through the streets at night

White glow, the supermarket sign

it’s strange to be back here goes without saying

it’s hard to get my story straight

I bluff, and then I hesitate. 

 

Tell me where you put the years

and how you ended up back here

it’s strange to see you here goes without saying 

it’s hard to make a clean escape

it’s hard enough toplay it safe

 

Do you ever wonder

Do you ever doubt

the way it carved and shaped us

the way it spit us out

 

An old song plays on the radio

then everything is touch and go

that you’ve got someplace to be goes without saying

there’s so much that I”d like to say

but the words they just evaporate

oh ohhh

 

 

3. LAST NIGHT IN MY DREAM

Last night in my dream we were floating in bed

when a blue tidal wave careened over our heads

and you said, “I’m afraid, but I’m glad”

 

And the mountain was covered with acrylic paints

that twisted and bubbled in candy land shapes

and two little girls sold us bad lemonade

with satisfied smiles

 

Back on the road with the sun going down

the shadows were stretching real long on the ground

and the rocks were just faces, all lost in their thoughts

and we let go of all of the troubles we’d brought

 

Everything after that was mostly a blur

cracked round the edges

leaning off ledges

of tall tall tall tall buildings

the ups and downs unending

If you don’t believe me now

One day you will

 

Back at the bar we all had a toast

it was mostly our friends and some strangers I noticed

across the pool table, weaving and singing “Come on”

 

The TV was warning about storms in the East

“I feel kinda bad, I don’t care in the least.

I don’t wanna go home. I don’t wanna go, not if you paid me.

 

We climbed up the rocks, watched another sun sink 

I tell you, this sure changes everything

the wind started up and you held me real close

said “there’s no use in worrying about things we can’t know”

 

Let’s get back to the heart of things

I kicked around, but I’ve got my footing now

and all in all I’m mending 

the ups and downs unending

I didn’t believe you then, but now I sure do 

 

4. 141 LIVINGSTON

141 Livingston

Summons to the civil court

months and months of falling short

and even more

wondering what for

sequences of one way streets 

seeking the same things on repeat

 

rain through the ceiling

getting that feeling

I should have known better

I should have known.

 

working the hooks loose

breaking the bad news

tearing up the photographs

splitting everything in halves

 

filled in the blanks

filled up the tank

headed back to Seattle

oh pride, I’ve had a belly full

 

It left me reeling

getting that feeling

I should have known better

I should have known

 

5. STAYED TOO LONG

Yesterday I swore I saw you

Leaving the train at third avenue

Climbing the stairs like you weren’t just a ghost

Hair the same old tangled mess

same old faded flowered dress

watched you in the crowd until you disappeared

 

I keep thinking that I stayed too long

I keep sinking and I can’t get going

Standing at the party

Watching everybody’s lips move

All that pretty small talk

I’ve been getting way too used to

 

Said you needed something sound

to tie your floating heart around

said “I just want something that won’t disappear”                       

and that old love song you wrote

I still can play it note for note

late at night I catch myself singing along

 

Don’t look back

you might see

everything’s much closer than it seems

 

 

6. THE FIGHT

The cities from above

the pixilation of

the human heart

 it stops and starts

a strange array

of moving parts

 

hold me up to see the lights

hold me up to watch the fight

one right hook

one bruised eye

the crowd goes quiet

the crowd goes wild

 

I’ll try to write it down

the best I can for now

white handkerchief

 I’m on my knees

I try to smile

 I bare my teeth

 

You leave with everything

 and all the noise it brings

the red hot sting

of reckoning

of lying down

 and giving in

 

It’s getting cold / just let it lie

I’m made of glass / they’re twice my size 

I’m on the outside / looking up

they close the gate / they start the count

 

hold me up beneath the lights

hold me up to watch the fight

pound for pound / eye for eye

the crowd goes quiet / the crowd goes wild

you get me square / in my glass chin

the crowd gets tired / they go back in  

 

hold me up beneath the lights

hold me up one more time

 

7.  CALIFORNIA

I’m wide awake at 3 am

Can’t get back to sleep

You’re far away in dreams but I hold your hand

Tell myself just breath

 

Down on the street there’s headlights in the rain

Wouldn’t be so bad if we weren’t so heavy in our ways

weighted and freighted by good times and bad

we’ve had lots of those

 

and I don’t mean to sound cliche 

just give me some

 

California Sunshine

Gimme a reason to believe

That we don’t have to stay here

We can always leave

 

I’m tired of all the running around 

(knowing) it’ll never be enough

We burn the days like paper

We burn them down to dust

 

And we’re not strangers to

shaking off the blues of old lives

And we know how to run like hell

Might as well get us some

 

California Sunshine

Gimme some reason to believe

That we don’t have to stay here

We can always leave

 

I don’t know where you’re at now

Seems to me the doors wide open

I don’t know where you’re at now

But anyway, here’s to hoping’

Let’s get us some

 

California Sunshine

Gimme some reason to believe

That we don’t have to stay here

We can always leave

 

 

8. THE SHAPE OF THINGS

Wreathed in chatter

strung with flickering lights

keep repeating "it'll be alright"

 

This is the shape of things

the joy and ache of things

 

Found you floating in a crowded room

Under your breath "can we leave soon" 

Took the back stairs to the roof

We want more but we get proof

 

This is the shape of things

the joy and ache of things

all bound to break against

our very last defense

this is the shape of things

 

Smashing bottles on the lawn

swamping stories all night long

wishing there was something I could say

another sunrise on another day

just piling on and on and on 

 

This is the shape of things

the joy and ache of things

all bound to break against

our very last defense

this is the shape of things

 

 

9. SOME DAYS

The way the light gets in

the shadows lengthening

the television

flashing visions of our action stars

with broken hearts

 

the same old strings attached

the same old plots unhatched

the dinner getting cold

crackling car stereo

down below

 

Leave your story with a passerby

they’re just passing through so they won’t try 

to fill the holes in 

Some days it goes in waves

Some days

 

Oh I tried I tried I tried

to get the words just right

I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired

of making all the same mistakes twice

I can’t stomach any more advice

 

All of these true events

We break our hearts against

the happy accidents

that accidentally 

bend the course of history

it’s common place

 

the same old strings attached

the same old plots unhatched

the dinner getting cold

crackling car stereo

down below

 

left me reeling

getting that feeling

I should have known better

I should have known